NIN

Well sorry so long on not blogging but there has been a lot of living going on son. Went to see NIN on Saturday. they fucking clocked it like Mike Tyson before he took the dive to keep Rocky Marciano's record alive. I mean knocked it the fuck out. It was by far the best visual concert experience ever. I do plan on taking homeboy p to it in Cali when they come back thinking a fly in and fly out situation. Yeahhh. Okay ended up ath the show withthe craziest female ever. Was trying to take a homie but he was like oh no take my girl...Yeahhhh. Wow. Crazy night. Went to the pit and paid tribute and every one that chick aint mine for reals. So I saw Nicky and she was looking okay. I always felt bad for her. Freaking pedohphile uncle, a mom whom is trained in wild circus ceremonial sexmajick and junky genes. It was nice to see her even though i couldn't talk to her because i was not about to introduce new crazy to anyone. So what can i go and rant about. Obama brought it hard on his world tour and it was scary to see that Berlin thing. IS HE THE ANTICHRIST? Lets check with Faux news. oh good going NAS. A album that could could not be titled Nigger but you left it untilted with the fake wipped N. I like it though. Saw NAS this year. Almost had to knock out a drunk frat boy there. Trying to do the whole dude I am drunk hug me mannn. I straight armed him then ignored him and he tried to do the whole lets talk man whats up duude. His friend tried to apologize and I go if he touches me again I will kick him hard in the nuts and when he is down I will piss on him so move him away from me. His buddy grabbed him then he started molesting the guy next to me and then he tried to like stare at me and i was straight into the show not giving him any attention. I then ran into David. Bouncing gig. Congrats David in finding a woman who loves you for you and lets you work out and be all sensitive and shit too. He has a daughter and that is fucking awesome since he decided to quit drinking and shit. Proud of you man. But it was a good show. Nas is like a few bomb beats form being great and yeah lets face it Illmatic is just the time and place and all that. you know. Now we just got fake and gay gangsters and no real black hardcore rappers out there. Young Buck I actually like but got mixed feelings far as like the G-unit shit. Love dipset to a point and all that but the whole Black Wall street shit is staight blasaphmey. How you going to take a piece a real black genuine in your face black man history. Black men really doing it and then apply to some bullshit rap group consortium or click and all you do is jump on dick and battle rap other black rappers. Far as I am concerned I am with David Banner. You punks ain't shit. oh yeah your tough to each other but you are not bucking any real authority. Scared of that shit. Might lose your spot on cribs and what is up with that. They should do a cribs part two. I would call it who lives in those cribs now. Bet it ain't half them rappers who are all whatever. I am not hating. get the fuck out the ghetto and do the Sean John thing or whatever or just invest in some business. Like Dead Prez says you cant sell dope forever. Oh and who you selling it too. I saw a porno with a chick in boxer shorts who wore them backwards and she got fucked through the dick hole. That shit was hot. Okay What else. My boy is doing the fun thing soon Way to go Steve. Dont fuck it up too bad. Well the thing is its really close to that time. I Miss you baby. So whats next to trip on. I am doing poetry. I fell in lust with Shell bell. red and black omg....and the glasses and she is short so she gots that banging butt...Pretty face. pretty eyes and glasses. GLASSES. hopefully Monday i get some lunch with my FAVORITE britney jew. She is sooo tasty. East coast...

Sure it Aint Monday?

What the hell? You know if another mofo asks me for another I phone I will snap. It’s kind of like where I work at is the opposite of Apple. I don’t know if I can say where I work at or not but they are very persnickety about the rep of the place so I won’t try and get fired by naming them but if you like email or ask I will tell and if you guess...Then motherfucker you will get plenty of clues to get close or nail it. Everyone just doesn’t come out and ask for it a few like engage me in what I call captain scenario. What is captain scenario you say? It’s when you have a question you know you will probly get a fuck no on it but if you come out with some ass backwards crazy way of doing shit...Like those dudes with dominoes making their toast.
But I digress, I said no and by the fourth mofo I straight yelled it out, fuck no... I mean be real. What job is going to give you an I Phone? If your company offers you, a regular scrub an iphone then by all means get the fuck out. Sell your options and get the fuck out. I expect a few executives and shit like that but if like the babe getting coffee is sporting an Iphone and it is straight comped by work and she is not stroking the phone guy then there are some serious management lapses. Oh and if anyone has any hard data or analysis of how that device works on the enterprise side then please send me some info. If you didn’t know what that last sentence meant then by all means don’t ask about it. But back to my day. Then it happened. Rick Ross is fake. You can check out the whole thing at this link. http://www.bossip.com/21443/officer-ross-exposed/ It is crazy. I swear a hardcore mofo does not exist. Alfahmega (sp?) seems legit. But let’s go through the list of lying gangster bitches. 50cent, Rick Ross, Akon and I know I am forgetting someone. You can put that shit below...Now don’t get me wrong. I will still be bumping the shit out of Hustlin' forever when I get down and need a banger. Until a new banger takes that spot. "Foolish" is slowly taking it for me. But I got Nine inch nails on the brain. They are coming Saturday. Yeah biieetch. I will be getting my Trent Reznor on! I hope they play BURN! I listened to that song for like a year everyday like all the time. Yeah it is true me and Trent born the same day. I must get to working out like a mofo because like I need to be buff like that. I mean I don’t get punked but being buff is nice for other things. Like opening things and whatnot. Tired of Obama. Tired I say. Home slice in Iraq going this is some fucked up shit. We are getting the hell out. I don’t know if he is going to win or if he is going to do another J Kerry, Lose and not bitch about it after it is proven he didn’t lose. Damn I went to trivia (the team won) and my grams is dying. It’s kew I got gramps on the other side about to kick it too. It is tough because you know it happens in three so like someone is next, so like I am doing the speed limit and also not pissing anyone off. It’s sad. I don’t know how it will affect me but it should be a good writing period. I can transform pain into beauty and not become the ghost of men I see walking in the costumes every day. Well goodnight all. Love you and hope the best for you.

who I am

I'm a million different people from one day to the next...." And I prefer to be called Rod T. I rather not write about me because I don't know what me I should really show you. I seem like a great contradiction. I say great because I am full of myself. I am also honest with myself. I rarely lie to myself except to get what I want. I'm evil and selfish but never greedy and often generous. I lie, cheat, steal but not often enough to affect my personal integrity. Ends rarely justify my means. But I like the ends. I'm a lover and a fighter, but not good at it. I don't hate truth or beauty or success of others. I do hate. I love more. I hurt more. I inflict pain on those that don't deserve it often. I am infected with dreams and hope. I'm looking for a cure but I have no idea what it will look like. I have failed and succeeded to the point of ad nauseam and fear them both equally. I cant spell or write well. I can speak and connect emotionally with people. I'm fascinated by variety. I like different things. I try different things often to get a better idea of lifes meaning. I don't know much anymore. But everyday I try to know something different or remember it. I'm vain but not prideful. I'm cocky but never arrogant. I like to consider myself funny. But I don't tell jokes. I have shame but not for what you think. I'm often broken hearted but my soul has endured and my body has endured. I'm trying to break the chemical control. I'm trying to be different enough to stand out but not get taken out. I'm a wolf currently shedding my sheep's clothing. And all you black sheep...Yep you guessed it ...you are still sheep. I try to comply but break the rules I deem necessary. Meet me. Greet me. Befriend me